Life Update

So I have to start off with my new boyfriend.

He's possibly the greatest man I have ever met and been with.

I'm so happy it hurts to smile so much.

My depression has gotten better and my anxiety is gone when

I am with him.

We have been together now for 3 months as a couple

dated for a month before.

I'm excited to have my first Christmas with him.

I've met the parents and some family members.

He's met all my family and they love him!

My father approves of him entirely and even enjoys playing

darts with him on friday nights.

We're excited to do things together and I'm just happy.

He's gotten a promotion at his work twice now, we're excited.

Continuing on considering I have written in a long time. 

I've lost a lot of weight since I last wrote, been buying new clothes,

and now that I am with Barry we're going out and doing cool things and keeping

active in life; basketball, walking, going to book stores, going to Rama.

Life feels perfect. I'm kicking the negativity right out of my life and the people

that come with it to boot. 

I'm using the Herbal Slim Green Coffee Bean Supplement

it's working amazingly.

I'm cutting back to only one diet coke a day to eventually none.

Lifes Great! 

I also got 2 new Kittens, Bambini & Punkin.

Suuuuuccccckkkkkkssss

Fuck this itchy rash is killer. The worst part is it's under my chin so it's irritating to my face and i'm not happy about it at all. I got this cream and it's $50 for 100mg barely covered shit and it's still itchy so i'm figuring that stupid ass doctor just took a guess at what this rash is and nothing more. He didn't even do any tests so when I go to see my doctor on the 9th i'm going to fucking complain hardcore cause this is some expensive bullshit right here. I have no contact with anyone until the 9th I can't touch anything or even go out anywhere cause I don't know what this is. I'm hoping it's measles or chicken pox or just allergies because my dads had chicken pox 3 times now and I've had it only once and I tend to get everything he's had happen to him in his life. At least I found a few old photos on my camera of my old dog Misha♥ and my baby girl Abbigail ♥

The nightclub life sucks!

So as some of you know my friend Hopes birthday just came and went and for her birthday we went to 'The Guvernment'. Big mistake was super hot, sweaty and all around disgusting there. The most vile people I've ever seen in my life barely dressed we're let in no questions asked. I've never been squeezed into a tighter more sweaty place in my life. To top this night off I ended up contracting 'Scabies' off one of those dirt ball people who rubbed their nasty sweaty bodies against mine as I tried to squeeze through the crowd to leave this nightmare. Now I get to soak myself in nasty smelly cream for 3 days and be quarantined from my life while doing so. Happy fucking times for me. Good thing it's curable. But still what a piss off.

At least Hope had a wonderful Birthday ♥

Feeling Pretty

Getting my hair done tomorrow by the lovely Martina

So excited to have colored hair again. 

Going to go red!, yeah! so excited !

I can't wait to be a red head again :D

I need to buy new shoes to for my friends birthday

June 29th at the Guvernment I found a pair I love

but they're super expensive.

I might just order a pair online and I want to get extensions

to go with my outfit.

I'm feeling pretty.

& i've decided not to move out

why put money into a house that isn't mine when

I can put money into a house that could be mine one day.

I don't even care if he's mad. To bad.

New day

I hate all this pressure everyone is putting on me. 

Yea I'm moving out, but it takes time 

I'm not able to just magically make 

everything perfect at once. 

I start a new job in July and its a lot of 

pressure to handle. I'm so stressed out. 

I'm also starting to work out again cause 

I have a dress to get into for my best friends birthday party 

at the guvernment nightclub in Toronto. 

I should start today actually so I'm ending off here. 

Kiss the past

I wish I knew how beautiful I was back in my childhood

I was always told I was fat and ugly.

The people who actually cared told me other wise

but it's hard to believe few when so many say another.

I was only 160lbs in high school but apparently 

that's really fat... now that i'm the weight I am now 

and going down for that fact I wish I never listened to 

those mean kids and let them tear me down.

Because maybe I would have been a happier child.

Maybe I would have smiled more and met more people.

I sheltered my self to the few who made me feel good about

my self but never put my self out there to others.

I just found some old photo's of me I haven't seen in 9 years.

And i'm happy with what I see.

I'm going to share them with you all and you tell me.

This is me my grade 10 year of high school and me only this Jan 2013

New Home

I'm Moving!

Going to be moving out of my parents house finally

and be out on my own. We'll not completely alone

as I am moving out to live with my friend Ken.

I'll be taking my two cat Abbigail and Dellilah, & i'm 

going to be renovating my new room next week!!!

I've picked out everything it's just a matter of 

picking it up and putting it together Ken and his friend

Garrett will be doing all the reno work for me causes 

they're awesome! I can't wait!

This is my small update ^_~

Not Happy

I'm none to happy with things right now

I've applied to many jobs and i'm not hearing

back from a lot of them which is very discouraging.

& on top of that I have my mother on my ass 

also looking for jobs for me (not that I asked)

she's breathing down my neck even though she her

self has a job that she only breaks even on.

It's pissing me off. Also I might have to apply

for disability because of my medical conditions

even though I don't want to my doctor might make me.

♥At least Leelou gives me hugs♥

Doctor days

Heading to the doctors today quick photo with my loulee before I go. I feel pretty today.

Tomorrows my birthday to, I'm going to Sephora today :)

Happy birthday from Sephora :D

Went to Saphora want to share my spoils :D the gave me my birthday gift early because they're closed tomorrow for Good Friday :3

Pink

I'm missing my Pink hair

I hate having this black hair it's depressing.

Why do jobs have to be so picky.

I can't wait to be able to have Pink Hair again!

HOLY BOOBIES!

What's everyone up to these days I need ideas

for good things to do to keep me entertained.

Doctors Tomorrow!

Market Scores♥

Headed to the indoor market today with my mom

my best friend Sabrina & her mom :)

Wasn't to bad mom got some pinwheel crystal.

I got these 3 books.

Rod Stewart AutoBiography, Johnny Cash Biography

& The Last Days of the Reich.

Didn't get much cause there wasn't much there.

Apparently there's a better market in November we'll 

go to. We've still got Wing Ding to go to in June :)

Hopefully I find more Vintage things ♥

Indoor Market

Going to the indoor market tomorrow with

 my best friend and we're taking both our

moms. My pay roll got messed up this week 

too which has been really aggravating me.

I was suppose to get paid on the Tuesday

but now I have to wait until possible Monday 

now because they messed up.

I've also became addicted to watching 

The Walking Dead & Archer.

But I am out of episodes to watch until new

seasons come out or new episodes.

♥Also look at my LouLee ♥

Friends?

I know this is early in the morning but I have 

been sitting here just thinking about how many

things I have done for people over the years

and yet how many of those people would 

actually be there for me if I needed them?

I can probably count on my 1 hand how many

there would be and that makes me kind of

sad considering I have lost count of how many

I have been there for. 

Also I'm really missing my Pink hair right now...

what in the world made me color it black....

Post Test

So my friend Hope took me for my test today and I was

really pumped for it nervous but pumped but they were

closed so...yeah was mad. But she made me feel better.

I'll be doing the test tomorrow morning first thing so nothing

goes wrong. I have an appointment on the 20th for the doctors

i'll be getting blood work and more.

We'll I had an awesome time out I haven't been out 

in a while I really miss being able to go out all the time

staying in is just garbage. I'm putting all the seasons of

Trailer Park Boys, The Walking Dead & Archer on 

disk for Andrew for when I go over again. We're gonna

have a movie night :)

Tomorrows test

I'm getting a test done tomorrow with one of my best friends

 that will help determine whether my life will change

 or stay the same. I'm scared but excited. Fingers crossed.

Also I've finished going through all my things and I've gotten rid 

of so much garbage and things from my past I don't want to 

remember. I'm excited for new things.

I Deserve This♥

So I got extensions for the first time and I have to say

I love them! I miss my long hair. The only thing I hate 

is the clips cause I can feel them when I touch my head

I don't like that I can feel them. Andrew likes them though

which makes me happy, he's banned me from using scissors

now I have to grow my hair out. I'm also in love with his 

dog, (it's mutual) his dog loves me haha Andrew calls me

his dogs girlfriend. His dog wont even let him touch me with

out his permission, it's really cute.

I've been really happy with my life so far. We're also

doing renovations for the upstairs bathroom and the basement

I have almost completely cleaned out to start renovations down

there. I'm really excited to get started. I've cleaned out at least

5 bins of things I had stored and given away to goodwill.

I'm having my birthday at McReiley's this March 29th as well.