Well I suppose that I should be sleeping but I'm not. I am in no mood to sleep at all I kind of loath myself right now and am taking a real hard look at my life. I guess I wonder why me is all. I mean in the last four years ive been cheated on, had not one but two miscarriages, diagnosed with PCOS, been told I cant have kids, been told I can have kids but it will be hard, had an awful lower abdomen scare for my appendix, had radiation in a small dose done to me a few times while in the hospital, smashed my face and my knee in a public washroom causing damage to my jaw which requires surgery, been diagnosed with HPV, broken my right foots baby toe, and now i've gained back all fifty pounds that took me the better half of a year to loose in the first place....what else is going to happen to me this is ridiculous. If I didn't have Barry I don't know what I would do.
I do but let's not discuss if right now. Mind you I don't know who I'm even discussing this with as I don't think anyone really cares.I'm writing this for my own pleasure I suppose. Who knows. Online diary I guess. I love you Barry C. Leavoy. xx
