A personal intro to what's going on right now is that Barry and I are not together anymore due to some personal reasons I don't wish to discuss. But it's been really hard on me yet eye opening at the same time. I didn't realize how much I relied on Barry for things and to be there for me, when I used to be so self sufficient. Even when I was in a 7 year relationship I worked hard and did what I needed to get what I wanted and I didn't really do that with Barry. It's like I was screwed up, and by no means is that Barry's fault at all it's mine for letting that happen. I took a vacation and just never came back from it until it was to late. I had achieved getting a new job with my best friend Dilly at the time and re entered myself into the work force. I met new friends and had so much fun. Eventually Barry's friend Robin got me a better paying job with her at her company which is where I am working now and wouldn't trade for the world. I still see some of my friends from my old job though which is really heart warming.
This post has honestly been a whole year in the making (and then some). So now writing this it's been over a year since myself and Barry have split and we're both with new people which is really great i'm happy again. I really had to pull myself out of some really dark times. My mind was so harmful and not a good place to be. I'm so blessed to have such wonderful friends who were there for me during this time as well like Dubeau and Cheryl. I don't know what I would have done without them. Break ups are honestly hard but I think it's all about how you approach your mindset when it comes down to it. There really are stages to these things and I had to really take a good hard look at what I wanted, where I wanted to be and who I wanted to be. I didn't know who I was anymore and that's never been me. I've never been one to sugar coat things and hide who I am as a person and now I have this new lease on life to just be out there. I haven't smiled so much in such a long time.
I found such a wonderful man to spend times with who has so much passion for life that it gives me hope that I can be that positive as well. My best friend Dubeau is also reinforcing that feeling as well he's so positive about life and makes me feel like I can do anything. You need amazing people like that in your life. cut out the negative vibes and put in the positive ones. Everyone should just uplift others instead of putting them down. I'm excited to see what this year will have in store for me.
Saying goodbye to 2017 and hello to 2018. I Need ICE CREAM!