I Miss You

 I feel so bad every time I see your photo.

I have so many regrets.

I wish I cherished your friendship so much more.

I know you know that I loved you in my own way.

I made sure I was by your side when you needed me.

I wish I didn't give up for someone who was worthless.

You were an amazing friend and always there for me.

I suppose I should just love the memories and hold on to 

the good times but I still feel guilty. Like there's no closure.

I'm sorry that when you asked me out I never said yes.

I'm sorry for not standing up for you the last time you needed me.

I wish I spent more time with you, even when I spent weeks with you.

I loved you, I still do, I wish you happiness.

At least I have a photograph of the last smile you gave me.

Thank you for being my best friend.

Even if only for a short part in my life.

♥J.V.♥

Weight Loss Goals

I've been hating on my self lately because I gave up on my weight

loss goals but i'm getting back on track. I'm going to give up pop and I 

have started to work out again. I just did 40 minutes of light treadmill running.

Sweaty me is gross though just saying. I'm not big on being sweaty lol. But I wanted

to show you all my new hair, I mixed 50% Pink (my normal pink) and 50% Purple &
I got this color. I love it, Everyone's been telling me I look very elegant and posh. I
 just want to be Kawaii!! lol New glasses too!! super cute they're white but change
 to a purple in the light.Plus I love that they match my hair. Super cute! Well I
want to get more into loosing weight I have 29 days until Barry's Birthday
 and 31 days until we go to Wonderland for Barry's birthday I would like to be in
better shape than I am now for all the walking we will be doing. Plus I want

funnel cake without feeling guilty. I want so much more from this weight loss but
right now i'm going to set small goals. I'm going to try my hardest to loose at least
15lbs - 20lbs before the15th of August! I'm starting out at 294.2lbs
& Yes I am that heavy, yes I know I don't look it but I am.
I am ashamed of it. I am dealing with it. I am strong and I can do this!

Not Giving Up!

 This is my tracker from MyFitnessPal.com
You can add me as a friend too !
http://www.myfitnesspal.com/profile/lucilawless