Hydradenitis Suppurativia

Well I went to my doctors appointment about 3 days ago now and I've now been diagnosed with Hidradenitis Suppurativa its a hereditary, recurrent, & painful disease in which there is inflammation in the apocrine sweat glands. It causes a blockage in the hair follicles. As the secretions cannot escape, the hair follicles may swell up & burst, or become infected. 

Hidradenitis Suppurativa has also been linked to the bowel condition chron's disease. The treatment I have to take is called Doxycycline is a tetracycline antibiotic that fights bacteria in the body. The side effects are rediculously long. 

But on a good note I got to visit with my sweet little man Corbin. Who is Heathers son. She would be so proud of how big he's gotten. He makes me feel so much better like Heather did. I wish I had more time with her, to do things with her. 

Worth

It's days like today I'm really glad that I have Barry with me.

I don't know how I would deal if I didn't have his love and support.

I'm getting tired of all the backstabbing people in my life who spread

lies and talk behind my back. I'm tired of those people being as close

as family or being family members as well. I don't know who to trust

anymore. It's sad when I have no one to talk to but my own boyfriend.

I have a few friends I can think of that I can trust but I don't want to 

burden them with my problems. Who do you trust now a days.

I like to keep to my self now since Heather's passed away. Even 

my old close friends have changed and are unreliable. I knew when I

had days like today I could call Heather and tell her everything with no

judgement, no pointing, no concern she would tell another. Life was good.

I wish I had that again but people have become so full of them selves, no

concern for others, doing for them selves and not thinking of the consequences.

Some just going down a path that you can't even say anything thing because

it will do no good anyways. They just push you away and continue down

that spiral to nothing good and i'm there at the end waiting, beaten, torn down,

bleeding and yet my arms are open to catch you...you let me fall. 

But Barry is there. That's all that matters. That all I can hope for.

And it's worth it.

JDRF Walk For Diabetes

We did the JDRF walk or diabetes yesterday which went better than I though. It started at 10 and we were done and ready to go by 12:20. I met a few of Barry's co-workers. I had fun pushing Brandy and Daves daughter Abby in her stroller. I would do it again. 

Mallymkun

Warning! Graphic content in this post!

So I got a new addition to my vastly growing sweet little personal collection. 

I've decided to name him Mallymkun. He's a sweet little white mouse around 3 inches not including the tail. He was beautifully preserved by my new friend Jocelyn, who told me he was one of her first wet specimens. He's such a beautiful shade of white & I will love him forever. 

Jocelyn has also been given the task to preserve my very first wet specimen whom I call Sir Lupin The First. If you haven't guessed he's a little bunny (Lupin). His jar was tainted and I'm excited to get him back all fixed up! 

Funny I have a rabbit and a mouse. A rather Alice in wonderland goings on here. What a fitting name for my mouse to have as Mallymkun (the door mouse in Lewis Carols Alice in wonderland). Twinkle Twinkle Little Bat! 

Hillview Haven Estate Bed & Breakfast

 

      We got away finally. Away from everyone and went on our bed and breakfast estate getaway. It was absolutely wonderful and very much needed. So our stay was at a beautiful place about 3 hours away called Hillview Haven Estates. It's on 24 acres of land with horses and a gorgeous view of the lakes and hillsides. They had many rooms that were styled to different countries like England, Africa, France, And a Victorian style room as well for a family to stay in, we booked the cutest one though it was Japan. We had a gorgeous large tub big enough for two right beside our bed that we set up Netflix and soaked for two hours. It was so much fun. 

The dinner the host prepared was a three course meal that I would love to go back for more. We started with a salad that was avocado, apple, and cucumber diced on top of a single leaf of lettuce with his homemade dressing. (to die for) also my first time trying avocado. (not bad at all). Our main was stuffed chicken breast roasted with sliced almonds and mango on top of another home made gourmet sauce with roasted potatoes, asperigus and a stuffed pepper. (also my first time trying asperigus not a big fan of it but not bad also). For desert we had the lightest chocolate cake I've ever had in my life. It was served in a martini glass the order went chocolate cake, layer of ice cream on top, chocolate topping with whipped cream then more chocolate shavings, a cookie wafer and a strawberry on top. (heaven in a martini glass should be the name). We later found out this man used to be a gourmet cook who worked for five star restaurants all over the place.

Barry took me shopping around the area and we went to wonderful attractions in really remote places. We got to see scrap metal made into really cool figures like Bumble Bee and Optimus Prime!

      

      

                                           Yeah we're nerds who get excited about this stuff.

        I found a vintage portrait someone painted and had a good laugh cause it reminded me of Barry looks like his pooping face which is also his might be concentrating probably thinking about bacon face lol. Either way I miss his Moustche! 

      

       This was my new friend were very close as you can tell lol I had a really nice laugh after I thought of all the comments I could just imagine Heather saying about us being a pink threesome lol. 

    Over all it was a really great vacation even though it as only two days away from home. It's was needed and I feel so much closer to Barry and much more in love with him. I have a second heart necklace now two sizes bigger than the last which just reminds me everyday how much larger my love grows for him but the little one to show me where it all started. 

               To end off my blog post here I leave you with this great store find....a penis pig!

     

What Family

I'm sick to my stomach right now. I literally cant take anymore of this 

bullshit family nonsense. Everyone is so vindictive and secretive behind

everyone else back and I hate it. I had two good sets of family members

my cousins Rich and Kitty and my Aunt Colette and Uncle Tim. People I

look up to and now i'm down to 1. What kind of world is this is everyone just

as fucked up with family as I am. All I ever wanted was that big family that when 

I had my own house I could have them come over and have dinners and now I have 

nothing but broken families everywhere. I'm sick of this shit. Everyone's a damn 

mess. I'm being told I can't choose sides I love my niece more than anything I love 

Kitty she's my sister; she's not even like a sister she is my sister. I'm sick to my 

stomach. I honestly cant even look at the people in my family anymore either. 

I feel nothing. I'm doubting everything now. What's the point of having

family if I hate the majority of them. I have like 0 true friends and no one 

talks to me anyways whats the point now, living to do nothing. I lost

my one friend who cared about me and told me she loved me and now 

everything has gone to shit, It's just one things after another.

Maybe it's time to go.

Birthday

It's been a while since my birthday I haven't had time to write.
But it was the best birthday ever.
we started my birthday at Casino Rama, where we got a hotel room,
and we went to the spa (which is a joke there by the way) the girl
was really under educated about anything nail wise which was what my
whole appointment was for, she failed hard core.
But after that nonsense we went to the room and then got ready to go to
dinner and then gambling.

The 27th we went around Orillia and did some window shopping
I found the cutest bear ever! besides Barry of course.

Then we went to RJ & Darquis' place where they ordered
chinese food and bought me a hello kitty DQ cake.
they also surprised me with a gift of the 3rd and 4th
skull duggary plesant books.

the 28th we went to a dart tournament in memory of
one of the guys that passed away that played darts with the
group that we play with. To many drunks for me.

On my actual birthday the 29th; we went to the 400 flee market
and then went to Orillia to the East side marios for dinner with
both my parents and barry's parents. and then we had to go to his parents
house because they had a gift for me there which turned out to be the
most gorgeous hope chest ever. I love it so much.

Needless to say best birthday ever.

Also Barry got me the best gift ever!
Bed and Breakfast stay at a really big estate away from everything <3
I can't wait!

Lol were goobs!