Luci happy

I feel really accomplished today. Very accomplished. I got all my grocery shopping done, managed my bills, got dinner made, sorted all my files (tomorrow I work on my fathers files), I managed to have a conversation with 2 strangers at 2 different times without having an anxiety attack. One of them in person in a grocery store and the other through a phone. I'm quite proud of my self. I got almost all the laundry done tonight I'll have only 2 more washes to do then the bedding before Barry gets home from work. I could totally be a house wife. One day I'll have a baby in the mix as well though which will make everything I've done today much harder to do with a child but I think I will get even more joy out of he complexity of it all. Sorry this post is more about the chores of life I've done today but I'm happy and I live sharing that. 

(Pillow cats! Abbigail & Dellilah 💕)

A Few Things Off My Chest

Well I suppose I'll start off with the face that i'm now a ginger. Not sure if I am enjoying it or not considering I have had black hair for as long as I can remember. I have been starting to work out with my boyfriend Barry. We will have been together now for 1 year this August 1st, exciting I know. 

In other news i'm looking for a support group to help me out as I've been to the doctors a few times now and I've found out that i'm struggling with PCOS (poly cystic ovarian syndrome) and a new heart attack for me HPV (human papillomavirus) for those of you who don't know what that entails it's not a great thing to have. I can potentially get cervical cancer from this disease, & as many of you know I had a previous spouse cheat on me who is more than likely the reason I have it so i'm not thrilled. I will be still able to go about my life as normally just adding in a few more doctors appointments then usual and i'm not a risk factor unless you sleep with me which you don't (but yes that means Barry is and yes he is aware and tested and confirmed with me we are going through this together) He's a little more okay with it than I am but it's mainly for 2 reasons; one being that he's trying to be strong for me, & two because getting an STD is one of my all time greatest fears of life.

I'm not thrilled but I will have to live with it and I have come to terms with it as I should because this has no cure. I how ever have become more involved with HPV Awareness groups and finding a cure. I want to get a few wrist bands for people and raise awareness around my community considering I didn't really know anything about HPV until I got it. I'm now wondering what I really went to school for? I mean I took sex education and HPV seems to be something that just gets phased out with other STDs like aids. They should cover all the STDs especially being a woman and HPV being one of the only STDs that can cause cervical and rectal cancers. Why aren't we being made aware? I might stop into my old highschool and have a chat with the staff and see if they will hold an awareness day for the students because women and men should be involved. It takes two for these things to go around. I was actually really surprised to find out that even my own parent's were not aware of what this entailed and it gave me little to know comfort knowing this. I had to sit down and do my own research and while my doctor was impressed I still can't help feeling lost. My hopes here are to reach out to other women with HPV & the other underlying problems that go with it to come forward to me with advice for me to understand and take hold because i'm struggling. January is going to be a whole new ball game for myself, I never knew it was HPV awareness month.

Anyways onto another topic. My stunningly gorgeous new niece Abigail is to be baptized on the 15th (yes that's fathers day) I don't know why they picked that day but i'm sure it will be explained when I get there. For fathers day this year i'm not entirely sure what we have planned I was hoping to get my father one of those indoor-outdoor fire pots that they carry at green earth as he loved the one I got Barry's father for his birthday. We can't seem to think of anything practical to get Barry's father though. He's a man of very little wants and needs. He loves the outdoors and tea. Perhaps we will take them out for dinner in place of materialistic things, who knows I'll leave that one up to Barry.

Well that's my craziness for the week I suppose. 

I'll update again in a while. Hopefully not as long as this time.

Red Best Friend

Colored my beautiful best friends hair last night we finally got photos. We did a 5RR with a 9 Black under panel. Turned out awesome and she can wear her hair anyway and it looks fantastic :)

Update once again

It's officially going to be over half a year with Barry. Our Christmas went beautiful and I'm excited to spend valentines day with him as I've never had someone or I've been with someone who doesn't celebrate valentines and it was awful. I'm excited to be with someone I truly love and loves me back. I want to be with him forever. We've also joined good life fitness together to get health with each other's support. He's deffinently the one. 

Life Update

So I have to start off with my new boyfriend.

He's possibly the greatest man I have ever met and been with.

I'm so happy it hurts to smile so much.

My depression has gotten better and my anxiety is gone when

I am with him.

We have been together now for 3 months as a couple

dated for a month before.

I'm excited to have my first Christmas with him.

I've met the parents and some family members.

He's met all my family and they love him!

My father approves of him entirely and even enjoys playing

darts with him on friday nights.

We're excited to do things together and I'm just happy.

He's gotten a promotion at his work twice now, we're excited.

Continuing on considering I have written in a long time. 

I've lost a lot of weight since I last wrote, been buying new clothes,

and now that I am with Barry we're going out and doing cool things and keeping

active in life; basketball, walking, going to book stores, going to Rama.

Life feels perfect. I'm kicking the negativity right out of my life and the people

that come with it to boot. 

I'm using the Herbal Slim Green Coffee Bean Supplement

it's working amazingly.

I'm cutting back to only one diet coke a day to eventually none.

Lifes Great! 

I also got 2 new Kittens, Bambini & Punkin.

Suuuuuccccckkkkkkssss

Fuck this itchy rash is killer. The worst part is it's under my chin so it's irritating to my face and i'm not happy about it at all. I got this cream and it's $50 for 100mg barely covered shit and it's still itchy so i'm figuring that stupid ass doctor just took a guess at what this rash is and nothing more. He didn't even do any tests so when I go to see my doctor on the 9th i'm going to fucking complain hardcore cause this is some expensive bullshit right here. I have no contact with anyone until the 9th I can't touch anything or even go out anywhere cause I don't know what this is. I'm hoping it's measles or chicken pox or just allergies because my dads had chicken pox 3 times now and I've had it only once and I tend to get everything he's had happen to him in his life. At least I found a few old photos on my camera of my old dog Misha♥ and my baby girl Abbigail ♥

The nightclub life sucks!

So as some of you know my friend Hopes birthday just came and went and for her birthday we went to 'The Guvernment'. Big mistake was super hot, sweaty and all around disgusting there. The most vile people I've ever seen in my life barely dressed we're let in no questions asked. I've never been squeezed into a tighter more sweaty place in my life. To top this night off I ended up contracting 'Scabies' off one of those dirt ball people who rubbed their nasty sweaty bodies against mine as I tried to squeeze through the crowd to leave this nightmare. Now I get to soak myself in nasty smelly cream for 3 days and be quarantined from my life while doing so. Happy fucking times for me. Good thing it's curable. But still what a piss off.

At least Hope had a wonderful Birthday ♥