Suuuuuccccckkkkkkssss

Fuck this itchy rash is killer. The worst part is it's under my chin so it's irritating to my face and i'm not happy about it at all. I got this cream and it's $50 for 100mg barely covered shit and it's still itchy so i'm figuring that stupid ass doctor just took a guess at what this rash is and nothing more. He didn't even do any tests so when I go to see my doctor on the 9th i'm going to fucking complain hardcore cause this is some expensive bullshit right here. I have no contact with anyone until the 9th I can't touch anything or even go out anywhere cause I don't know what this is. I'm hoping it's measles or chicken pox or just allergies because my dads had chicken pox 3 times now and I've had it only once and I tend to get everything he's had happen to him in his life. At least I found a few old photos on my camera of my old dog Misha♥ and my baby girl Abbigail ♥

The nightclub life sucks!

So as some of you know my friend Hopes birthday just came and went and for her birthday we went to 'The Guvernment'. Big mistake was super hot, sweaty and all around disgusting there. The most vile people I've ever seen in my life barely dressed we're let in no questions asked. I've never been squeezed into a tighter more sweaty place in my life. To top this night off I ended up contracting 'Scabies' off one of those dirt ball people who rubbed their nasty sweaty bodies against mine as I tried to squeeze through the crowd to leave this nightmare. Now I get to soak myself in nasty smelly cream for 3 days and be quarantined from my life while doing so. Happy fucking times for me. Good thing it's curable. But still what a piss off.

At least Hope had a wonderful Birthday ♥

Feeling Pretty

Getting my hair done tomorrow by the lovely Martina

So excited to have colored hair again. 

Going to go red!, yeah! so excited !

I can't wait to be a red head again :D

I need to buy new shoes to for my friends birthday

June 29th at the Guvernment I found a pair I love

but they're super expensive.

I might just order a pair online and I want to get extensions

to go with my outfit.

I'm feeling pretty.

& i've decided not to move out

why put money into a house that isn't mine when

I can put money into a house that could be mine one day.

I don't even care if he's mad. To bad.

New day

I hate all this pressure everyone is putting on me. 

Yea I'm moving out, but it takes time 

I'm not able to just magically make 

everything perfect at once. 

I start a new job in July and its a lot of 

pressure to handle. I'm so stressed out. 

I'm also starting to work out again cause 

I have a dress to get into for my best friends birthday party 

at the guvernment nightclub in Toronto. 

I should start today actually so I'm ending off here. 

Kiss the past

I wish I knew how beautiful I was back in my childhood

I was always told I was fat and ugly.

The people who actually cared told me other wise

but it's hard to believe few when so many say another.

I was only 160lbs in high school but apparently 

that's really fat... now that i'm the weight I am now 

and going down for that fact I wish I never listened to 

those mean kids and let them tear me down.

Because maybe I would have been a happier child.

Maybe I would have smiled more and met more people.

I sheltered my self to the few who made me feel good about

my self but never put my self out there to others.

I just found some old photo's of me I haven't seen in 9 years.

And i'm happy with what I see.

I'm going to share them with you all and you tell me.

This is me my grade 10 year of high school and me only this Jan 2013

New Home

I'm Moving!

Going to be moving out of my parents house finally

and be out on my own. We'll not completely alone

as I am moving out to live with my friend Ken.

I'll be taking my two cat Abbigail and Dellilah, & i'm 

going to be renovating my new room next week!!!

I've picked out everything it's just a matter of 

picking it up and putting it together Ken and his friend

Garrett will be doing all the reno work for me causes 

they're awesome! I can't wait!

This is my small update ^_~

Not Happy

I'm none to happy with things right now

I've applied to many jobs and i'm not hearing

back from a lot of them which is very discouraging.

& on top of that I have my mother on my ass 

also looking for jobs for me (not that I asked)

she's breathing down my neck even though she her

self has a job that she only breaks even on.

It's pissing me off. Also I might have to apply

for disability because of my medical conditions

even though I don't want to my doctor might make me.

♥At least Leelou gives me hugs♥